Thursday, October 21, 2010
So I'm on CD 10 and I have started "testing". I have been getting some decent lines so Im sure that ovulation is on the way ;). I know that I am probably getting my hopes up, but I have such a good feeling about this month. I guess I am just being optimistic! I really am starting to understand more of the "why me" with the infertility issue. I have met so many special friends that I would not have if not for this awful disease. (If anyone is wondering it is considered a disease of the reproductive organs). I have had a few friends that I started the journey with, and a few friends I have met along the way. I have one who has become very special to Heath and I rather quickly and more recently. This couple is starting IVF very soon and with this not so casual decision comes alot of questions and paperwork. You have to actually designate a recipient of your embryos if something should happen to you and your spouse. We have been chosen by these friends to receive the embryos. I am so completely honored that someone feels that we are worthy of raising a part of them. It really got me thinking about how God works so mysteriously behind the scenes. While we are not watching things change and grow. If not for my infertility I would not be close to this friend. If not for infertility Heath and I would not have grown into the couple we have become. If not for infertility then I do not think I would have been the parent that IM GOING TO BE! I already have so much love for a child that has not even been conceived, I can only imagine the feeling of knowing that I have a child on the way but I also feel like that I do not have to be pregnant to be a mother, I just want to raise a child.