Dear Infertility.....

Dear Infertility,
I am over you. I will no longer let you consume my life. My world will no longer revolve around you and what "cycle day" it is and do I have enough tests. I thought the Holidays would be so hard this year, because we were sure by this time we would be pregnant or  even holding our own baby. But it hasn't been, I'm ok with not being pregnant, I'm ok with not having a baby. Of course more than anything my heart desires to have a child, BUT only when God sees fit. We do not understand God's will or his timing but he has our best interest at heart. I do not want to look back and regret time wasted being mad or upset. It doesn't mean that I am not still hurt, or that some days I still want to scream, its just getting easier to deal with. We have the best support system we could ask for, and at the end of the day these things are what matter. I am so thankful for my family and my husband, I am so thankful for my friends and my job. I am especially thankful for God's plan in our life. So infertility kiss it.. :)