It's been while.... :)

Wow! My last post was in November! So much has changed since we decided to put a "hold" on the fertility drugs. I am so glad we made that decision, I can finally say that I am truly at peace with our life. I have no idea what CD I am on, and I could careless! I of course still want to be a mother, but everyday that description grows on my heart in so many different ways. I am completely open to whatever God has in store to expand our family and in his time, not mine. I am sure many of you know that we recently became God Parents. Let me just say that there is no feeling like knowing that you have been chosen to be a part of a child's life. When we knew little Lexi was making her "debut" I was a nervous wreck, how am I going to be excited for my best friend when all I want is what she has. We actually stopped on the way and spent 1 1/2 in Marks Outdoors to just prepare ourselves that this might be harder than we thought. I was so completely blown away at how God can come in and bless you when you least expect it. Ever since I have met this wonderful little baby, it has showed me that it was their time to be parents. God will make us parents when it is our time. I have not once had any thoughts of " I want this" or "Why can't I have this', it has just been wow, what a perfect creation that he has made. I do think the medicine was just what we needed, not to get me pregnant, but to make me realize the power of our God. He is in complete control of our lives and we are just along for the ride. I cannot say that I won't go back to treatments, because if that's in the cards for us then he will lead me there. I just feel like right now I need to just sit back and let him work.I have a feeling that this blog is not going to be so much about infertility anymore, just more about our life and the people we love :)